Anyone who fails to recognize the effort you put in to make it work is not worth the time. Walking out of the wrong relationship has only taken me closer to walking towards the right one.
Everyone seeks a partnership for different reasons. There are some who seek a relationship that makes them feel complete, others look for a connection that compliments their way of life. But anyone who has been in a relationship long enough will tell you one thing - it requires work. And anyone who fails to recognize the effort you put in to make it work is not worth the time. Because at the end of it all, a relationship can only be built on the commitment that we're willing to give each other.
The only way to make things work is when both of us put our hearts completely into the relationship. But watching you prioritize everything else but our relationship showed me that I'm never going to get the commitment I deserve. And that's why I've decided to go with what's best for me.
Don't think of me as your next conquest or someone you can date just for the fun of it. I refuse to be another person in your list of ex's that you dated when you felt like it and ditched when the relationship stopped being convenient for you. I'm a person with my own needs and desires, and if you can't respect that, then I'm not going to waste my time waiting for you to come around.
I could see that our relationship wasn't a priority for my ex. And I understood that I needed to make myself a priority. I am willing to wait for that one person who will meet me halfway. I want someone that I can rely on, who will be with me not only for the best parts of the relationship but also for the tough ones. When I give my heart to someone, I am giving them all my trust and honesty. And I expect my partner to give me the same in return. I will treasure you and cherish every bit of you. I don't expect you to be perfect, because I know that I'm not either. But as we invest our time in each other, I know that we will understand each other better. We will give each other the space we need to grow beside each other and grow together in the relationship.
Don't be afraid to show me your worst. I don't back down easily when things get rough. When you have battles to fight, I can fight them with you. But I need to know that you wouldn't let go of my hand when it's time for me to face my own battles. That's what a real commitment looks like. If you can't see yourself in a relationship like that, a real relationship, then I won't bother spending time on it.
If you have a fear of commitment, it's your job to sort it out. But don't make me a victim of your insecurities. If you're afraid of making our relationship a priority, don't drag me down with the uncertainty you have of the future, or anybody else for that matter. When you know that someone expects you to put in an equal effort into the relationship, show them that you're in it for the real deal; and if not, you will soon have to watch them walk away. If you're going to take your own sweet time to decide whether you want me or not, I'm going to save you the time and decide for the both of us.
After all these years, I am learning to choose myself. For all the times I have been let down in a relationship because of a partner who made me his 'choice', I can finally say with confidence that I have started looking out for myself. It took a lot of strength to walk away from someone I loved. But it was something I needed to do for my own good. Walking out of the wrong relationship has only taken me closer to walking towards the right one.
I deserve love. I deserve a real commitment. And I will hold on until I find that partner who gives me both.