You wish you had someone by your side, someone who loves you for all that you are, flaws and all. You've been on your own for so long now, you've begun to feel like this is all life has in store for you.
Two words that hold a world of meaning. It's supposed to mean that you're happy and getting on with life, but you use it when you don't want anyone to see the pain you're feeling. You just wish someone would look through it and push their way to make sure you were truly okay. Yet there's no one on the other side to keep you from drowning.
You've been alone for so long and you don't know how much longer you can take it. You're okay with being alone but you don't deserve to be lonely. You're allowed to want someone to share your burdens so that you don't crumble under the weight of life's challenges.
Being around people can drain you because you know that they aren't actually interested in making sure you're alright. You know that they just want you to do stuff for them and you're tired. Getting away from everyone is the best way to heal your soul.
Even if you don't want people to take on your burdens, having to keep all your pain bottled in isn't right. You don't talk to anyone because you know no one will understand. But, really it's burning you out, even as do it all solo. So, it's okay if you want to let it all out to some stranger... one that you'll never see again.
People have mocked you for being over-sensitive. But why shouldn't you be? After all, no one truly wants to know how you've really been. Why would you not be upset about things? Bottling up all those emotions is eating you up and you are allowed to let it out.
Helping others has always been second-nature for you. Unfortunately, now everyone thinks that you're always going to be there at their beck and call. But you deserve some time to yourself. You deserve to take care of yourself. You deserve to make yourself happy.
It's okay if you're just done with everyone's nonsense. You've cared enough about what everyone thinks about how you should live your life. It's your turn to be free in your choices and decisions. You're your own person and no one can take that away from you.
Having to deal with everyone has made you sacrifice the things you love so that those close to you can do what they love. And up to a point, you're an amazing person for being able to do that. But you don't have to do it all the time. You have the right to pursue your dreams. You are an individual who deserves to be recognized for your passions.
Despite all that, you'll be fine. Not because you depend on anyone to make you happy or independent. Not because others come to you for advice, love and so much more. You'll be fine because your soul is stronger you think. It's carried you so far and it will carry you further. All you need to do is make sure you don't forget who you are. Because there is no one who's more capable of beating the bitter lemons life throws than you.