Roger Moore's Final Handwritten Diary Entries Reveal The Sentimental Father Beneath That Tough Bond Exterior

Roger Moore's Final Handwritten Diary Entries Reveal The Sentimental Father Beneath That Tough Bond Exterior

“Flossie was terribly brave and refused to give in. But the bastard cancer took her from us," he wrote.

Suave, handsome, and unforgettable was Roger Moore; each time he came on screen he was the tough guy who never went unnoticed. But beneath that exterior, he managed to hide the real Roger Moore who was an emotional father and someone who grieved relentlessly when his daughter passed away.


After a brave battle with cancer, he passed away at the age of 89. And in his final book of memories, his daughter Deborah Moore was able to see his innermost thoughts, the very thoughts that he never told anybody else. “I burst into floods of tears when I read his final reflections,” said Deborah Moore, according to Mirror. "It was just so incredibly poignant."


Even as he was nearing death, he was able to look at life with humor. He didn't live long enough to see his book published. “He called it À Bientôt, which means ‘see you soon’ in French. And when I read it...oh my God, it was tough," she said. “It was hearing Dad’s voice again, his wonderful childlike humor, his optimism, and zest for life. I just couldn’t imagine the world without him.”


His book also showed how he grieved for his daughter, Christina, lovingly called Flossie, who also passed away because of cancer. As a grieving father, Roger Moore wrote, “Flossie was terribly brave and refused to give in. But the bastard cancer took her from us in July 2016. I never imagined anyone could cry as much as her mother. No parent should have to bury a child. It was the cruelest, most awful thing.”


It was tough for Deborah Moore to read, just like it would have been extremely tough for her father to see a disease claim the life of his own daughter. At the time, he wrote on Twitter, "Our beautiful daughter Christina (aka Flossie) lost her battle with cancer 25 July at 10 am. We are heartbroken."


Roger Moore never stopped seeing the lighter side of every situation. "He used to say, ‘You know you’re old when you feel 21 but wonder who the old fart in the mirror staring back at you is?’" she said. He would never mind taking a moment out of his day to show a kind gesture to someone. Deborah Moore added, “Dad was old school, a true star. He never refused anyone an autograph or a photo, even if it was at the dinner table. He said, ‘No, these are the people who put me here’.”


Unlike the onscreen tough guy onscreen, off-screen he was a loving father who filled his children's lives with sweet memories. "He used to cook Christmas lunch and would be up two days before, making the brandy butter. And God help anyone who went into the kitchen and tried to interfere,” Deborah Moore said. "...My parents had an enormous bed, and when I was little Dad would lie there in the mornings reading the papers. I’d snuggle up next to him, put my head on his chest and listen to his breathing, hear his heart beating."


In an extract from À Bientôt, posted on Yours, Roger Moore wrote: 

“Still hanging on after all these years has made me realize and appreciate all the good luck, the fun, great fortune and the major milestones I’ve been part of, both professionally and personally […] Though perhaps the greatest sadness in getting older means outliving loved ones, friends and colleagues. It’s not easy to see your mates leave for the great cutting room in the sky, though admittedly I’m in no rush to join them […] Does mortality worry me? Yes, in all honesty, it does, as I think it does everyone. It’s the unknown really, that’s the worry. I’d certainly like to think it is years away yet, and that I’ll face it with all the dignity a coward can muster.”


His daughter has no doubt that wherever he is now, he's still having a hearty laugh with his mates. She said that the 'great cutting room in the sky' is where he is now, "...Telling naughty jokes to all his mates in heaven and giving the angels something to flutter their wings about."