Paris Jackson could not cope with her father's life easily. She struggled to find her way and missed her father's presence and guidance.
Michael Jackson is surely one of the most talented singers and performers the world has ever seen. However, his personal life did not always share the same charm and image. Surrounded by rumors and murky allegations all throughout his career, the singer tried to keep his personal matters away from the public's eye, including protecting his three young children. Their identities were hidden and their faces were covered behind colorful masks, veils, and masquerades until his death on 25 June, 2009.
The legendary musician's death turned the attention of the world towards his children, Paris, Michael Joseph Jackson Jr., and Prince Michael Jackson II. For the first time, their faces were seen on national television. Dressed in black, surrounded by the rest of the Jackson family, 11-year-old Paris Jackson and her brother, Prince stood on stage to say their final goodbyes. Overcome with emotions, Paris tearfully said, "Ever since I am born, daddy has been the best father you can imagine."
The pain that followed Paris all throughout her life is not something she seems to have been able to overcome. Raised under the guidance for Michael's mother, Katherine, Paris, and her brothers tried to live like any other children. However, nothing could take away the pain of losing their father. She recalled the memories of her father on various occasions.
When she was just 14 years old, she told Glamour magazine, "I love my dad, and I'm proud to be his daughter. just don't think the title 'MJ's daughter' fits me." She even told that his memory guided her despite the problems she faced. As a teenager, Paris reportedly struggled to fit in and battled low self-esteem issues. The absence of her father's physical presence was painful for the growing teenager. She stopped celebrating her birthdays and often broke down in tears. But one thing she could always count on was the love of her family when she returned home.
Michael's former personal chef, Kai Chase opened up about the emotional trauma faced by the star's daughter. "Paris hasn't had any birthdays since. She hasn't wanted to celebrate since. Being daddy's little girl, Paris is devastated. She's devastated and lost. She's trying to find herself and find who she is. It's taking a lot of love and understanding to keep her together. She breaks down, she cries, she talks about him," said Kai according to Entertainment.ie.
The young girl wanted a role model and believed finding her mother would help her overcome the problems. Paris soon got in contact with her mother, Debbie. Though they did not share a usual mother-daughter relationship, she confided in her. However, no-one could replace her father. When she turned 18, Paris opened up about the wounds left by her father's death. She revealed how his death had left a void in her life forever.
"They always say, 'Time heals,'" she said. "But it really doesn't. You just get used to it. I live life with the mentality of 'OK, I lost the only thing that has ever been important to me,' said Paris to Hello. For Paris, there is nothing that could hurt her more than her father's death. "So going forward, anything bad that happens can't be nearly as bad as what happened before. So I can handle it," she said.
Calling herself, daddy's girl, she said the bond she shared with her father never died though he was not physically around. “I feel him with me all the time,” admitted Paris. She is focused on modeling and acting. In 2017 she signed with IMG Models and even landed her first acting job FOX's Star. And in 2018, she went on to star in the film, Gringo.
She said she wanted to follow her father's legacy and wanted to make use of the big platform she had. When asked what her father would want for her, Paris stated that Michael only wanted her to be happy. She recalled him saying, "If you wanna be bigger than me, you can. If you don't want to be at all, you can. But I just want you to be happy." Much like any other child who lost their father at a young age, Paris too lives with the everlasting memories of her father. The active social media user shares old pictures with her father, showing the world their unbreakable bond.