After the divorce, "I feel I know now more of what I need in a relationship, what I want in a relationship," the actress said.
After imagining that you'll spend the rest of your life with someone, it's indescribable to pick up the pieces of a broken marriage and walk away, especially if it means having to raise a child as a single parent.
Scarlett Johansson called motherhood "liberating" and told Playboy, "For me, it's the best thing that has ever happened. Ever," as quoted by E! News. But she's also admitted that there's always a looming feeling of loneliness that comes with raising a child alone, because of the bittersweet experiences she's had with her marriages when she was younger.
"The idea of building a family, making a family, and having that work, I like that idea. I think that would be wonderful. I’ve always wanted that," she told Vanity Fair. However, she had to see both her marriages fall apart, the first of which was with actor, Ryan Reynolds.
"...The first time I got married I was 23 years old," Johansson said about her marriage with Reynolds. "I didn’t really have an understanding of marriage. Maybe I kind of romanticized it, I think, in a way. It’s a different part of my life now. I feel like I’m in a place in my life, I feel I’m able to make more active choices. I’m more present, I think, than I’ve been before."
When she admitted that she hoped to raise a family with her second husband, Romain Dauriac, she said, "I wanted that also in my marriage to my daughter’s father as well. It just wasn’t the right person."
Johansson knows the emotional turmoil that comes with knowing that a marriage is over. And during her recent relationship drama, titled Marriage Story, her portrayal of a wife in a crumbling marriage seemed so honest and real. "I had some kind of shared experience with the character, or with any person going through a divorce, really," she said. "I understood the bittersweetness of it somehow, in a way. All those kind of in-between feelings that the character has. I understood them because I had gone through them myself."
The actress also spoke about how divorce left her alone in her experience of parenthood. While she clearly adores her 5-year-old daughter, Rose, the actress also admitted that the isolated feeling can be overbearing. "I’ve felt in the past – there’s such a loneliness to being a single parent," she said, according to USA Today. "Obviously, it’s a lot of many different things at once, but there can be a loneliness and this constant feeling of doubt, that you don’t know what the hell you’re doing and you don’t have anyone else to bounce it off of."
While she's made her way through a number of tough experiences, she finally found herself in a loving relationship where she no longer has to feel guarded in love. She fell in love with someone she had known for years—Colin Jost.
"I’m just in a good, creative phase and I’m in a very happy, fulfilling relationship," Johansson told Extra at Elle’s Women, according to Metro. "And I have a beautiful, very healthy, and inspiring daughter, and things are great."
Going through the tormenting experience of divorce has also helped her know what to expect in a relationship and how to handle the ups and downs. "I feel I know now more of what I need in a relationship, what I want in a relationship. And I know I have more tools to communicate, not just with my partner, but with myself," she told Glamour. "That's not necessarily any reflection of who I was married to or what was happening in my marriage, but really where I was in my life."
Johansson and Jost are now engaged, and the actress spoke about his proposal on an episode of Ellen. "He killed it... He's very charming and very thoughtful and romantic," she said, as reported by CNN. "But yeah, I was surprised. Even if you kind of imagine what that moment's gonna be like, it's still beautiful moment... It was very personal. It was a special moment," Johansson added. "I think, more than anything, when someone tells you they want to spend their life with you, that's a lovely, special thing."
For Johansson, on the other side of divorce and the loneliness of parenting her child alone came a wonderful relationship with someone that she called "the love of my life".