His biography revealed that depression was one of the many emotional turbulences and disorders he had.
It has been years since comedy legend, Robin Williams' demise but his fans around the world still live in denial and despair. Through his magnificent filmography and humanitarian work, he has secured an irreplaceable place in the hearts of millions of people around the world. But what still remains unimaginable is that the man who lived only to make people happy spent his final days in excruciating emotional pain.
However, in a biography written by Dave Itzkoff named Robin, it is revealed that depression was not the only thing that the Dead Poet's Society actor suffered through, there were other neurological disorders that made his last days agonizing, reports Mail Online.
The biography quoted him as "both wildly outgoing and painfully introverted." It also disclosed that during the filming of Night at the Museum: Secret of the Tomb, the Oscar winning actor was unable to remember his lines as he was unknowingly suffering from a devastating brain disorder.
"He was sobbing in my arms at the end of every day. It was horrible. Horrible," makeup artist Cheri Minns said, reports the New York Post. Though heartbroken by his state, Minns had no idea how to help the troubled actor. “I said to his people, ‘I’m a makeup artist. I don’t have the capacity to deal with what’s happening to him.’”
When Minns suggested that he return to stage and do stand-up to help regain his lost confidence, “He just cried and said, ‘I can’t, Cheri. I don’t know how anymore. I don’t know how to be funny,’" Cheri remembered.
According to his wife Susan Schneider Williams, the actor started complaining about a variety of symptoms that included trouble urinating, insomnia, loss of his sense of smell and a slight tremor in his left hand. "Depression was one of let’s call it 50 symptoms and it was a small one," she revealed to PEOPLE. "It was like playing whack-a-mole. Which symptom is it this month? I thought, is my husband a hypochondriac? We're chasing it and there's no answers, and by now we'd tried everything," she added.
Later, in a journal for Neurology she revealed the symptoms her husband experienced. "He had a slow, shuffling gait. He hated that he could not find the words he wanted in conversations. He would thrash at night and still had terrible insomnia. At times, he would find himself stuck in a frozen stance, unable to move, and frustrated when he came out of it. He was beginning to have trouble with visual and spatial abilities in the way of judging distance and depth. His loss of basic reasoning just added to his growing confusion." He was nothing like himself. "He hated that he could not find the words he wanted in conversations," his wife explained.
It was later found out through an autopsy that Williams was suffering from undiagnosed Lewy body dementia, which is a neurodegenerative disease that presents in hallucinations and impairment of motor functions, reports apost.
The iconic comedian who was also suffering from Parkinson's in addition to depression took his life in a cold and solitary manner by hanging himself in his bedroom. On August 11, 2014, the comedian's personal assistant, Rebecca Erwin opened his bedroom door with a paper clip after not seeing him come out till 11 am, only to find him hanging.
His millions of fans around the world, friends, and family could not begin to fathom how a man known to spread such love and joy through his work could take such a brutal step.