"What deal we said is I will never take 'Beth' off my chest, I have her name here. And I will never get married," Duane Chapman said.
Still trying to cope with the loss of his wife, Duane Chapman revealed that he may never be able to call anyone else his wife after Beth Chapman.
The 66-year-old told that although he doesn't picture himself getting married again, he is still open to the idea of dating. "I probably will do that, and I told her that," Duane Chapman said, according to the video interview he did with People. "What deal we said is I will never take 'Beth' off my chest, I have her name here. And I will never get married."
"And she said to me, 'We are human, okay?'" he went on to say. "And probably the same thing I’d say to her: 'I know you’re gonna have a boyfriend, I hope you have 10, but don’t go fricking marry one, and say those words. Don’t you dare do that.' I would say that, and she did say that to me."
With time, he revealed that he might start dating, "Unless she haunts me," the star joked.
Towards the end of Beth Chapman's battle against cancer, she would ask her husband how he would make it without her. All he could say was, "I don't know," he said. "I don't right now." He "never admitted that she was going to die", according to E! Online.
Her final days were a struggle and Beth Chapman even asked him to let her go. "I said, 'No I can't. I'm not going to let you go,'" he recalled. "I still haven't let her go."
Beth and Duane Chapman's youngest daughter, Bonnie Chapman revealed that her father's love for his wife only grew stronger. "My dad had a love for her that was constantly growing stronger and stronger," Bonnie Chapman told SurvivorNet. "And it really showed her like, ‘he is really here for me. He is going to take care of me until my very last days.’ It was really nice to see her take comfort in that my dad was always gonna be there."
He never tired of telling his wife how much he loved her and how beautiful she was. "Even as her hair started to diminish, he would tell her that she looked like an Egyptian goddess,” Bonnie Chapman said. "He just loved her so much, and I’m really proud of him for sticking with her until the very last moments. That’s what she needed. She needed someone who loved her as much as my dad did. You know, I think that she truly feels that love now."
After her death at the age of 51, he said, "If there is a God, He won't let me live that long without her."
Ready to do anything just for a few moments with her, he said, "I cannot believe that she's gone. This is not possible. I want to wake up from a dream. In the ‘70s, I did 18 months in a Texas penitentiary, and I told God yesterday I'd do 5 years, 10 years day for day just to kiss her again."
The mourning husband revealed that his wife "will never be dead to me" and he believes with all his heart that she's just made it to "another place". "Everything she taught me, I'm going to get to Heaven," Duane Chapman said. "I am going to make her so proud."
When he spoke with People Now, he also took a moment to thank well-wishers everywhere who have supported the family. "Your fans keep you going, keep you alive, keep you happy, are your friends that you meet, so that helped her a lot too, with the battle," Duane Chapman said. "And now it’s helping me with this battle."