She hates it when people call him her "late" husband because she still loves him the same way.
"I’ll never get used to losing him," said Iman Abdulmajid, who spent nearly two and a half decades married to the legendary musician, David Bowie.
At the age of 69, Bowie passed away after battling with cancer for 18 months, according to Entertainment Weekly. Before leaving his wife, Iman behind, the singer gave her over 24 years worth of romance and memories for her cherish and dearly miss.
"David gave me the most exciting, touching, and deliriously loving 24 years," she wrote for Vogue after his death. "Still, it was not enough— shockingly brief. And although I’ll never get used to losing him, David is nonetheless hiding in plain sight."
When the International supermodel first opened up about her husband's death on Good Morning America, she said, "I’m holding up. I’m holding up," as quoted by ABC News. In the same interview, she pointed at a necklace that said, "David," hanging proudly around her neck. And she said, "I’m wearing this until my death."
2016 was not only the year she lost he beloved husband but also her mother. "It’s been a tough year but I’m holding up," Iman said at the time. And when fellow fashion icon, who was also on the show, called Iman a "survivor," the grieving wife said, "Not as much as you think."
Iman spoke about the loneliness she has felt since Bowie's death. She has guarded her personal life against the jarring effect of the spotlight and even as she mourned, she did it whilst trying to hide it from others.
"...Sometimes, I don’t want people to know how sad I am," the fashion legend told Porter magazine. "People say to me, ‘Oh, you’re so strong.'" As she rolled her eyes, she added, "I’m not strong – I am just trying to keep it together."
When asked about marriage, Iman revealed that she still considers herself married and still calls Bowie her husband, and not late husband. "I will never remarry," she said without a hint of doubt in her voice. "I mentioned my husband the other day with someone, and they said to me: 'You mean your late husband?' I said, no, he is always going to be my husband."
She admitted, "I do feel very lonely. But do I want a relationship? I can’t say never, but no, not now."
Along with the loneliness, she mentioned the other difficult moments she has had since her husband's death. Having been married to one of the greatest, path-changing musicians of the time, Iman admitted that fans don't always make things easy. "People take pictures of me in the street, and say [touching my arm]: 'I am so sorry for your loss,'" Iman revealed. "I’m like, don’t touch me. You just took pictures of me, how can you be sorry?” She softens a little. “I get the fans’ grief, but it’s not the same. They have lost someone they look up to; we have lost a husband and a father."
This resonated with something she said even while he was alive, and that is the fact that she knew Bowie in a way the rest of the world did not. And that would make her miss him in a different way as well. "As I always said: I fell in love with David Jones," Iman told The Guardian while Bowie was still alive. "I did not fall in love with David Bowie. Bowie is just a persona. He's a singer, an entertainer. David Jones is a man I met."
When she wrote for Vogue, Iman wrote about how she is reminded of the man she no longer has beside her when she sees the world grieving for him. "The outpouring of grief over David’s passing has helped me tremendously, though sometimes I’ve been at odds with it, too: Universal grieving for your life partner can also keenly deepen your own sense of all that you’ve lost," she said.
Losing him may have been difficult but Iman believes that her love for him will never end. With her name meaning faith, she also said, "As for David, I have perfect iman that we’ll be together again. Love doesn’t cease; love reshapes."